(steady music) - [Sol Guy] And I want to tell you about my father, William Richard Guy, he was my first hero - Well gang, has probably been about four days since found out the news.

That the disease has it clutches into me.

So I thought I would sit down and do some of these tapes to be left behind, you know?

- Natasha: Filmmaker Sol Guy never watched the videos his dad left behind until 20 years later, when he was a father himself.

- What I didn't realize about watching the tapes was how much I'd had avoided them.

- I love you guys.

(video chirping) I love you guys so much.

(video chirping) (steady music) - [Sol Guy] Then I got a call my stepfather, Freye, he'd had a fall.

He was the polar opposite of my father.

Whereas my dad lit up a room and held the space, Freye made space for everyone else.

And what my big sister, Travestine taught me, "we don't run from fear."

And instead of running away, I ran to it.

(upbeat music) - Natasha: Fatherhood, family, and a journey of self-discovery.

- [Sol Guy] When you begin to understand more and more of (Freye laughing) where you came from, you have a deeper sense of who you are.

- Natasha: The Death Of My Two Fathers on America ReFramed and streaming in the PBS app.